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Confussed and Lonely

Lost and confussed without you by my side. . Listening to everyone talk down about you. . You're my love, my everything. . "Don't make anyone your everything,
'Cause once you loose them,
You'll have nothing." I hate it, hate it.
Hate listening to these people who don't even know you. . Hate feeling like I have to choose. . If I'm with you, my family doesn't want me. . If I'm with my family, I want you. . Feel like no one understands,
They all say they do. . "I went down that road when I was your age. ."
Fuck you! Fuck what you went through. .

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Confussed and LonelyLost and confussed without you by my side. . Listening to everyone talk down about you. . You're my love, my everything. . "Don't make anyone your everything,
'Cause once you loose them,
You'll have nothing." I hate it, hate it.
Hate listening to these people who don't even know you. . Hate feeling like I have to choose. . If I'm with you, my family doesn't want me. . If I'm with my family, I want you. . Feel like no one understands,
They all say they do. . "I went down that road when I was your age. ."
Fuck you! Fuck what you went through. . Confussed and Lonely
in Spoken Word 1w 5h ago

Old World. .Meet New World. .Once upon a time,
Long long ago, it seems,
I lived in a world.
This was my old world.
The world where I could stay protected,
I didn't have to think about the future,
I never had to grow up.
So long as I lived in my world.
This was my old world.
In this old world,
I knew nothing of true pain, or sorrow. In this old world,
I was an infant trying to find my way.
Suddenly,
I broke free of my old world.
This is when I found you.
You.
Now, I have a new world.
You are my new world.
That saying. .how does it go? D Old World. .Meet New World. .
in Open on 3/19/08

Have I Told You?Have I told you how much I hate you today? Have I told you how sick I've been? Have I told you the reason we don't talk anymore?
Haven't I told you time and again?
Have I told you how much I love you today? Have I told you that I got an A? Have I told you thank-you for all that you do? Haven't I told you time and again?
Have I told you how much I hate you today? Have I told you I never want to see you again? Have I told you how bad you hurt me inside? Haven't I told you time and again?
Have I told you how much I love you today? Have I told you Have I Told You?
in Spoken Word on 10/6/07

..Sometimes..Sometimes, late at night, when I can't sleep, I think of you. Sometimes, early in the morning, when I first wake up, I think of you.
Sometimes, in the mid afternoon, when I feel like napping, I think of you. Sometimes, when I close my eyes, I think of you. Sometimes, when I feel my eyes fill with tears, I think of you. Sometimes, when I hear a sad song, I think of you. Sometimes, my heart beats fast and my stomach fills with butterflies, I think of you.
Sometimes, my knees go weak, and I can't see, I think of you.
Sometimes, my mouth goes dry, I think of you.
Sometimes, I s ..Sometimes..
in Open on 2/28/06

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Wednesday, May 14th, 2008 1:05 a.m.

Journal Entry: Tue May 13, 2008, 11:37 PM

Have you ever felt like you don't belong anywhere?
That's where I'm at.
I'm 18 years old.
Too stupid (or stuborn) to move back home.
So in love, I'm willing to give up my family for a man.
Still so young, my entire life spans before me.
Yet I feel like I'm so old.
No, I'm not very mature.
No, I'm not very smart.
No, I can't support myself and hold a job for more than 3 months.
Yes, I want to be independant.
Yes, I want to find my own way in life.
Still. .
I've resently discovered that in order to be an adult. .
You have to make some very difficult decisions.
When faced resently with a difficult disicion. .
I noticed that being an adult is harder than it seems.
I made a choice,
Now I'm afraid it was the wrong one.
I like to have my privacy. .
I can't seem to get it though.
No matter where I am,
Who I am living with,
Or what I'm trying to do with my life. .
I'm still so inexperianced.
I don't want to be an adult.
I don't want to have to make hard choices.
I don't want to be out in life,
Alone,
Scared,
Not knowing how to support myself. .
With nothing to support myself with (i.e. CASH)
I don't know what to do,
Or where to go,
Or wh oto turn to. .
Everything is so messed up, and it all seems to be my fault.
Mom and Dad are so happy I'm back in Texas.
My family (friends I consider family) that is supporting me right now,
They're all so happy I'm "home".
I don't feel like I'm home.
I feel like a guest that has worn out her welcome.
I feel like shit for wantting to leave.
I feel like shit for wantting to stay.
I don't know right now.
I just don't know.
I wish I did.
It's not all about me though is it?
I've been told to quit trying to make sure everyone around me is happy and okay in life and to concentrate on what's best for me at this point and time in my life.
But. .
What if I don't know what's best?
I've never really known what's best.
I've always had a mommy or a daddy or someone, ANYONE. .
To tell me what to do,
Where to go or not go. .
There've been rules, and I've been kept safe and taken care of.
I've never had to provide for myself.
I've never had to decide what's best for me.
It's always been decided for me.
I'm so lost and just want someone to tell me what to do.
Then again,
I DO have someone telling me what to do.
I just keep hurtting that person and fucking up the relationship we have going.
I just wish I were still 3 years old, and didn't have a clue about life.
Everything was so much easier back before I found out about life.
I need to go to bed.
Get some sleep.
Night all.

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Listening to: Lil' Wyte Doubt Me Now
Reading: Instant Messages
Watching: Transformers
Playing: Guitar Hero III
Eating: Lots and lots of nicoteen
Drinking: Water

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Email
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Current Age: 18
Current Residence: Texas transplant in Arkansas
Interests: Shadows, Candels, Life, Music, Hidden Meanings (or deeper), Details, Cooking, Writing, Cats
Favourite band or musician: Evenesecence, TATU, Switchfoot, Metallica, Aerosmith, Simon and Garfunkle, and lots and lots
Favourite genre of music: all genres suit me (generally)
Favourite artist: Vincint Van Gouge, Picaso, and Louie Le'mare
Favourite poet or writer: Mary Downing Hahn, Robert Frost, Walt Whitman
Favourite photographer: Malia Cline
Favourite style or digital art: Abstract
Favourite cartoon character: Inu-yasha and Kagome, Naruto
Personal Quote: "I'm awake in a dream, yet asleep in my own reality"
Tools of the Trade: empathy and creativity

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~morestarinatthestars

10 hours 3 minutes ago

Thanks for the

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5 days 59 minutes ago

thank ya 4 the fave

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6 days 8 hours ago

Thank you for the fave.

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*kamisch42

May 14, 2008, 1:39:51 AM Mood: Love

Thank yuo for the

!!! A poet eh? ...have I been here before? I'll have to check you out

Thanks again

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May 11, 2008, 10:00:46 AM

hello there! Thank you so much for the

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May 11, 2008, 7:25:15 AM

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May 11, 2008, 7:16:51 AM

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May 10, 2008, 9:24:18 PM

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May 9, 2008, 1:06:30 PM

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May 9, 2008, 11:58:35 AM

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May 9, 2008, 12:59:25 AM

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May 8, 2008, 9:43:20 PM

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May 8, 2008, 9:05:45 PM

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Mar 14, 2008, 9:39:04 AM

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Dec 2, 2007, 11:26:14 AM

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~zikex

Nov 21, 2007, 11:33:38 PM Mood: Love

hey hey!!
whats up??
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thanks for the fav!!
i really apreciatted!!

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regards from mexico
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Nov 18, 2007, 11:45:35 PM

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Nov 14, 2007, 9:12:07 PM

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Nov 14, 2007, 10:42:59 AM

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Oct 6, 2007, 2:20:46 PM

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Oct 4, 2007, 6:25:07 AM

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Sep 23, 2007, 11:29:55 AM

It's way late, but thank you so much for the favorite back in March!

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Aug 26, 2007, 10:13:12 AM

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Aug 20, 2007, 4:20:52 PM

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